Hi guys. How are you both doing ?Drunk dude how are you faring after your disasterous experience last week? you need to pack your bags and get the hell out of here fast as you can. You are lucky you have that break ahead of you so you can put some distance behind you and process this stuff in peace.In my last post I said something like things are rarely as they appear so don’t be fooled into thinking everything is great with her and this guy just becausethey had a great make out session. You’ll be hearing from her soon enough, just play your usual cool and distance...like AC said, get her e mail address and keep in touch with her, you know it will kill you if you don’t. When are you leaving and where are you going ?And come to that, tell us a bit about yourself..where do you live? Write soon. And you are right AC does not tell us much about herself either so AC, tell us some stuff. As for me, Well, DD i wish i could give you some better wisdom and advice right now but i just don’t have it in me. I am so depressed, i am quite a bit lower than rock bottom and might be there for a while. I went to the store yesterday to see him and say hi and may be chat just a little but some other Brinks guy was there, some old guy about 95 yrs old. I wonder if i will ever see him again. i know I said he is coming back to my branch in September but that was just a rumour so maybe not and even if he does, what chance do i have? It is possible that I will never see him again and that thought has got me spiralling downwards so i may have to chat with you both another day..sorry dude, i wish i could be there for you better than this but there’s nothing in me right now..have to find a way to get happy and hopeful again..I want to see him...chat soon AG

AG and DD
“The Wonder of Crushes” OR “The Crushes of Wonder” ... O where do I begin? My latest hair-brained fiasco is more of an obsession with hunting down people through silly googling and dogpile searches. If I find someone I want to know more about I go crazy trying to find out more. I used to do this when I was a teen, but alas, there was no handy internet. I use the information to “crack” a joke in front of this person to get them interested in me. Lately I’ve been obsessing with a friend of a friend on facebook (damn facebook). I started with tagging jokes on his photos. They were pretty funny (well I thought so because I’m self-absorbed in my own hillarity). Yeah, well this guy has tagged his own “status” as complicated and I don’t understand what that means. I think he’s married with children though so I’m not keen on a relationship at all… I just want him to add me to his “friend” list - what the hell? is that too much to ask? And when I don’t succeed I am “Crushed” in wonder. There are other “things” I will share with you guys, just don’t know if this is the right venue. In the meantime, here’s to my virtual friend Evan Bailyn for making a space for us to natter on… Thanks!
-for I am AlwaysCrushed

Hi guys, It’s been a week or so, I kinda missed you guys AG, you are lower than rock bottom you say? Well, take a look around I am not too far! I’m a phone call away from leaving, all I have to do is say ‘Yes, I am coming’, but...I just can’t do it...It seems I can’t let go. I was about to do it, but it was my birthday a few days ago, and she wrote me an email. Wishing me happy birthday and cracking few jokes like we used to do all the time when hanging out together. That email screwed me up so bad...and I’m back to square one which sucks.
You asked me where I live and where I am going...I’m not sure I’m comfortable giving up that kind of personal info on some blog..who knows who reads this stuff. I’d happily give you my email and tell you everything you want to know, but then again, putting my email adress here might not be the best idea.
It’s really late here, I’ll talk to you guys in a few hours, just wanted to let you know I’m still alive. Take care.

Hey DD… I was here a couple of times this weekend just looking at the history of the dialogue. I had missed a few threads for some reason and I had wanted to check it all out.
I got myself into a little bit of a jam after my last post so I blocked that guy from every going on my facebook. The original “friend” - well, I have limited his abilities on viewing my facebook and removed any pictures of him because he “talked” to another friend about me and that just ticked me off. Why aren’t guys more forthright and face the situation with the right parties? Why do they have to go the round-a-bout way to get their message across and involve other people? Crap! Image is everything to me, and I guess I bring a lot of trouble onto myself.  Whether I simplify things or over complicate them, I seem to be AlwaysCrushed.
I seem to be waiting for the White Knight in shining armour to come to my emotional rescue. I understand your depressed state more than you know. The difference is, I am a “young” widow and I don’t know what I want anymore. I don’t want to become complacent. I don’t want to settle for the status quo. I want it all, but above all I want eternal happiness.
I will take the email risk and invite you and AdventureGirl to both email me. Then, I will hook you two up appropriately. I will be discrete (that’s a given) and I won’t do anything until I’m 100% certain I have the right parties. Through this venue I will ask Evan Bailyn if he wouldn’t mind helping (if possible) through email as I am assuming he can view our emails. So Evan, is it possible for you to do that? If not, please advise at your earliest convenience here and then I will put my email address to the test. Let me know what you guys think AG and DD, OK? Looking forward to your responses, for I am AlwaysCrushed

my boyfriend still gets crushes i believe. and while crushes are a very nice thing, and everyone says it’s normal to get them even when your in a long term relationship, it still hurts me every time he starts talking about how awesome and great this other girl is. am i wrong for thinking that crushes on other people make our relationship less valid, and a crush means lusting after another person.

Jane,Jane,Jane
Please remember how AMAZING YOU ARE.
Because when you dump him for being so ignorant towards you, he will continue on his path until one day he will wake up alone and wonder why he’s so sad. It’s rather pathetic for him to vocalize that to you, but JANE,JANE,JANE please don’t let him invalidate YOU. You are the power and authority in your life and if he can’t see how AMAZING you are, it’s his loss hellooooo ... tell him where to go next time.

Awfully quiet in here...what going on?

Hey-Hey-Hey Drunk Dude - how’s it going? I miss you guys tremendously. I’ve been waiting for Evan to respond to my message, but perhaps he’s on vacation. I dunno, so I’m going out on a limb here and hopefully AdventureGirl will read this too. Please send me a message at my hotmail addy using the prefix LT320 in lowercase and hopefully things will workout with minimal interference from spammers. Talk to you soon… for I am AlwaysCrushed

Hi AlwaysCrushed and drunk dude.  I just saw your most recent comment.  What can I help with?

Evan… please see the last paragraph of my August 13 post request.  Thanks!  AlwaysCrushed

hey guys, I am back..i did miss chatting with you both very much and will post longer very shortly..just a quick note to say hi and how are you, especially you drunk dude...will chat again soon peace and luv to you both AG..

AG… long time no hear… go back 4 posts and re-read carefully please.
Talk to you soon… AC

I feel like crying sometimes. He talks even better with my best mate, he tries to make conversation with me but I just can’t talk to him, either my friends comes along to talk with me or I get too scared to talk to him then go to my friends desk in class. Hes never dated a girl and if I ask him out, he will surely reject me.

AdventureGirl, Adventure Girl where are you?
Drunken Dude and I await your response to my last post please and thank you… AC

Hi guys, I am so sorry it is taking me so long to post stuff these days, i am not doing a disappearing act (like someone else we know but who shall remain nameless, right drunk dude?)or anything like that, its just i have not had a chance to get in front of my computer..busy with regular old life. I am still stalking my crush but have not had any guts to talk to him yet..but i will, i will, i promise, i will, when I get the right time. Do you ever feel something big is waiting just around the corner, that magic is just waiting to happen to you, its a feeling you get in your intuition and i have it very strong these days..something is going to happen, like the horoscope you shared with me, AC, All answers will be revealed. Drunk dude, how are you my friend, have you gone overseas yet? Whats happening with your crush, tell us, I am dying to hear. AC, not sure what response you are waiting for, i am a little foggy on this, sorry.  How are you? What escapades and wisdom can you share with us?  hope you are well. I will post again soon...peace and love to you both AG

OMG AdventureGirl… where have you been???
Drunk Dude and I have been waiting for you to respond. Here’s the scoop… we need you to join us off the beaten track. In other words, we’ve connected on hotmail. He wants very badly to tell you ‘other stuff’ but not here, so I went out on a limb and provided him my email address. You’ve got to piece this thing together girl, so I’m going to spell it out to you… scroll up to the top of page 11 of this blog and read all of our subsequent emails, then I’m certain you will get it. We have a bet going so please don’t disappoint us.  If you are still not sure… well look, I’ve already gone out on a limb here so here it goes. Send me a message on my hotmail address LT320 in lower case… get it now? I will know it is you (no doubt) but make sure you include something that will verify it for me… OK?  Good luck with this adventure Adventure Girl… you’re going to need it ... LOL
AlwaysCrushed

Oh, and don’t worry Evan, we’ll keep you posted on the outcome of the crush thingy. ‘cause I’m AlwaysCrushed

ok, I get it..(I like the “duh” face BTW)..will send an email shortly, maybe you can forward it to DD..also lets continue “talking” on this blog, i like it..chat soon AG

AG!!!! forward it to DD? OF COURSE!!!.... THAT IS THE POINT. You were the one who requested this action in the first place… remember?? Oh and btw, that wasn’t a “duh” face, it was a “hmmm” face but you can interpret it as you will (meh-LOL)... OK so did you send that reply above to me at 7:11am as it says, or 8:11am? Just curious and trying to get a perspective on your time zone. Geez, I’m freakin’ relentless sometimes.  Seriously though, I’m really glad it all makes sense now and can’t wait to hear your latest escapades, oh I mean Adventures… heh-heh.  Until then, I remain AlwaysCrushed.

Hi AC, thanks for the reply. Although i love to hear about and from you both, I am not sure i want to give out my email address. I love the anonymity of this blog and the friendship that we have developed. Please show me where i “requested this action in the first place” because i would feel very badly if you were under the wrong impression about me wanting to share my e mail address. As i said i like the anonymity of this blog very much and i am thoroughly enjoying the connection i have made with you and DD here. Drunk dude, I totally understand if you don’t want to tell me more info here, totally. I would love to know more about you but i guess i am going have to forgo that here.Any news from your crush? How are you dealing with that these days? I may have some exciting news for you both on Thursday afternoon, I think i might see him and talk to him this time there is a good chance..will fill you both in then with all details..chat then if i don’t post sooner...yours always Adventuregirl

Hi there Adventure Girl.  You are right! I think DD had made the request, so I went out on a limb for him.  You are entitled to your anonymity, so no argument from me.  I think DD’s request came because you were asking him questions he didn’t feel comfortable answering here so it became a catch-22 situation and I broke down to bring you two together only as a go-between, nothing more.  I also felt that certain “conversation” would have been more appropriate in another venue, however that again was my opinion.
Hey, I’m really excited for you and your pending news. Can’t wait to hear if Mr.B is back at your location… I’m getting a little nervous with the anticipation.
Good luck AdventureGirl - power to you!
‘cause I’m AlwaysCrushed

Hi guys, sorry for the delay, some networking problems not allowing me to sign onto Evan’s site the last few times but finally here i am. Well, nothing to tell, as usual. His truck pulled up to the parking lot of that store i went to before but he did not get out for some odd reason.. I think it was his lunch time and he just sat in his truck and had his lunch, took his own sweet time and i did not want to wait in the store for who knows how long so I went out to my car.....which,, by the way was parked about 20 feet from his truck. i did not look at the truck (did not want to look too obvious)but just got in my car and drove off. I wonder if he noticed me coming to my car? I’ll never know..so now what? Not sure...counting on some damn good Karma or fate or luck or something to put us in each others path again..after all, what else does it all come down to but plain old good luck..could use some of that...write soon, both of you..and no AC, he is not at my branch yet ..you can bet I’ll keep you posted peace and love AG

OK, AC and DD are you there? How are you both? Its gone awfully quiet around here..i know my last post and “forward moving action” towards my crush was so lame, so very lame..here is plan B..this week i am going to look over at his truck and smile and wave at him(depending on level of confidence felt)..if he waves back, i would like to walk over and say hi how are you ? Do you think this is too forward and might get on his nerves, especially if he is not interested in me..he might be like “Oh no, here she comes bothering me again”..what if he does not roll down his window and i stand there like an idiot..I don’t think he can leave that amoured truck of his so may be he can’t get down and talk to me..not sure what to do but I’ll tell you one thing..no matter what happens i will not be going back to that parking lot next Thursday,you can betcha...that would look way too much like i was stalking him ,,there is a good chance this will be the last time i will ever see him so what have i got to lose? Damn, does these crushes EVER work out ? ..AC, some feedback and advice please, DD would love to hear from you again...i am at the end of the line....peace and love AG

nothing happened..it was a different guy in the truck.I don’t think my crush and i are meant to happen.it think it’s time to let go and move on, be it ever so painful..hmmm, i guess thoe of us who have no luck with our true loves must be content to be philosophers and ponderers of life..I am happy to give advice and support to anyone who posts here and wants advice..and i am always checking for my two friends and supporters to post again..thanks,Evan, for this awesome site to share on..best of luck to you all..I am over and out.  adventuregirl

Adventure Girl… sorry, but I’ve been very busy reinventing myself these last couple of months and busy with my new obsession (aka crush)... yeah… I have succumbed yet once again to the evil seed of a “crush”. Albeit we are emailing each other only and the difference is he is 10 years younger (gulp) and four hours away. And has three sons. And on pogy (sp?).  We have been sharing ideas on business ventures etc, and therefore I’m in the same boat now as everyone else.  Hope you keep me posted. I don’t think you should really give up.  Maybe it is time to stand up and be notice noticed for the wonderful person that you are… can YOU SAY - “I’m Amazing” - say this several times during the day with more conviction each time and you will start to believe it. Keep it up for at least five days and you will be it no matter what anyone else thinks, says, or does (or doesn’t do as the case may be).  Miss chatting with you hear immensely.
Lots of AMAZING vibes coming your way,
AC